“How Many Roads Must a Man Walk Down?”
Fascinating question. No, really. The lack of my usual sarcasm even startles me. Odd right? But the simplicity of it makes you think: What if… I never knew?
Never knew what was “wrong” all those years as a child? Never understood why I couldn’t quite keep up with the rest of the world with out several naps? Never discovered that I had Narcolepsy? Where would I be? What would I be doing? Would everything be different? The same? Better? Worse? Who was I? Who Am I? Who will I become?
After five years of pushing the idea of not allowing a diagnosis to become who you are, as a patient advocate, I feel I have inadvertently ignored my own advice. Not maliciously, mind you, but I simply do not have the energy to be everything to everyone and still be true to myself and live my own life. As much as I love being able to help others who are just starting down the nightmare road of sleep disorders, there just isn’t enough time between naps.
It’s never good to live in the past too long. And because of being diagnosed with Narcolepsy, and going through the ups and downs of acceptance, it didn’t seem so daunting anymore. The questions I have had all my life are answered, and I can finally put my past away and move on with my life. It can be whatever I want it to be… as soon as I stop standing at the corner of Narcolepsy Blvd and Cataplexy Lane, and move forward.
I dont know where “forward” will take me. I kind of like that. I’m just going to put down everything, pick up my towel… and go.
This is my last entry. I will leave the blog up, just because someone someday might want to read it. And excuse the lack of humbleness, but some of these entries are incredibly clever. LOL. Even if I am only amusing myself! I want to thank all my friends, and readers for following and supporting me. And Congratulate miander42 on being the winner of my contest. Great minds and all that right? Please Email me at Marcia.email@example.com so I can get your information!
Well that is all I guess. Sweet Dreams My Friends.
“So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish.”